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Another date for me to remember. July 27th.
Another person who did it before me.
Another person whom i knew.
I knew, but didn't help.
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It's been a long time since i've cried, and a longer time since i cried over a song. But on Wednesday it was two firsts in a long time.
I must admit. It's been a while since i just laid there on my bed covering my face with my pillow and sobbed, staining it with tears, tears for the dead, and tears for the living.
Of sorrow and of a feeling of release.
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To Gen:
Nice to know you're reading this. Must've been Skank that told you bout this rite?
Firstly, thanks for the letter and the cd. I loved the song a lot. You're still a natural. How's life in Vancouver? You never seem to like to put return add. on your parcels do you? Well. The reply goes here, although i suspect it'll be more than just you reading it, but nvm. They won't know what i'm talking about.
You were the first. You were kinda the last. =P Yes. Now don't go all jumping and hopping coz it's over so there. Nothing of interest that you should know about really. I think Skank prob will tell you all. He's still 'groovay' last time i saw him fortnightz ago. Groooovaaayyy. *rolls eyes*
Yea, i'm kinda depressed rite now. And no, i'm not that close yet. I'll send you a memento before i do it tho. Maybe include in my will or smthing. 19 year olds allowed to have legal wills? -ponder- Don't worry bout me. I'm still handling. Mus be why you sent me the song rite? Thanks. i appreciate it.
You still having them? Sigh. Sometimes i do too. Then i wake up screaming. Well. It's plaguing me less nowadays, but i still think about it sometimes. But as usual all i can say is: 'Don't think about it'. That's usually the best advice i give. Thinking leads to sweaty palms, delusions and fear of ....... you know.
Well.... i'm still sorry. I think you know what i'm talking about. Being very evasive here. Maybe next time you send a postage stamped envelope here with your address eh. Save me the trouble of censoring a lot of things. And yeah, up till now no one knows yet. I'm good at keeping mum about my things. Can't say so bout others. =P Now don't fault me coz you know you are a blurter too. *remember vi's present? -cackle-*
And btw nice song. Very nice very nice. You're somehow the only one that can find songs like that. And sing it well though. Thanks for the lyrics. I hate you. You made my eyes water. *bleach*
Chill with Skank k? *lol. chilling alrite in can! and you can stop reminding me how you hate the cold*
Don't bother coming down during winter hols. I think i'm gonna go abroad. OR at least stay in isolation.
Reply me soon. And remember the address.

Yours fitfully -cackle-
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Ok. For those whose name doesn't start with Gen plz ignore the letter above. Instead focus your attention on the song below. A very nice song by Phil Collins. And very nice lyrics too.... Too nice in fact. *i swear i hate you Gen.*

'For a Friend' by Phil Collins

When I saw him last
he had that look in his eyes
I said, "Do you need to talk?"
he said, "No."
So I called him up, asked him again and I waited a while -
he began to speak, then he started to cry

You know some things are best left unspoken
and some things just never work out
and sometimes, seems you try and you try and whatever you do
There's a fix that you're in, and you just can't get out
he said, "I need your help, I need it now
Give me the strength to go on"

Though I didn't know what
I knew that something was wrong
but he still had his pride
he'd tell me in time
Well this feeling inside
kept eating at me
I was losing a friend, and I had to know why

When I heard the voice on the phone, I knew it was bad news
so I rushed to be by his side
and we said goodbye for the last time
I gently hugged him, and kissed him goodbye
he whispered, "I need your help, I need it now
Give me the strength to go on."

We were always laughing
I just remember laughing, mama
We were always laughing

Oh I need your help, I need it now
Give me the strength to go on

Though as time goes by, and it all becomes clear
we can see the deceit, we see the lies
So I asked myself, over and over, and over again
What did they know? What did they hide?
Fools, leading the innocent blindly
Fools, turning away

And I know that
when I think of my friend with that look in his eyes
and if they told the truth, he might be here today
I need your help, I need it now
Just give me the strength to go on, on

I remember the laughing
We were always laughing

Oh no - it's just strength we need now
Just the strength to go on...

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For all the people heartbroken: Life goes on, but remember the bittersweet taste and gain experience from it.
For all the people feeling down: Carry on and things will pick up soon.
For all the people facing difficulties: Hang in there and it'll be better.
For all the people burying their face in their arms: Cry, cry out loud and grow strong.
For all the people feeling trapped: Reach out for help, for then you will find friends.
As for me, just let me be. *hear, hear*